i love how my period first decides to last for over a week, then gives me a random heavy flow right when i’m starting this new job. WHAT IS THIS SHIT? why will nobody perform an elective hysterectomy on someone my age? i totally wouldn’t sue later down the road. i swear i really don’t want kids. ever. ugh.

i was over this week before monday had ended. not surprised that it isn’t looking up yet.

i really want to sit here in bed and just watch movies and eat a bunch of junk food, and maybe have a beer or ten. except that would mean getting out of bed first, getting dressed and going to buy beer and junk food. and diet coke and cigarettes, both of which i’m just about out of. why does it have to be so cold outside? :(

holy motherfuck i am so confused about how to get to this damn interview. LIKE I EVER TAKE THE 6 TRAIN. it’d be so awesome if hopstop and google didn’t both give me different directions. :\

i want this job though. so, so bad. i don’t even care that it’s going to take me an hour to get to work every morning, the money is worth it. not to mention the fact that i’d still be home every day earlier than i EVER finished a shift at my last job. i’ve never interviewed for something and not gotten it before, so it’s gonna suck pretty hardcore if i don’t get this. everything is so frustrating right now and this past month or so has sucked beyond belief in almost every single way. i just want this one thing to go right.

ugh so lame, my stomach hurts after each and every meal lately, no matter what it consists of. junk food, salad, yogurt, sandwiches- all the same. yet i’m hungry constantly. what to do?

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